rocked my world

i would say that rocked is an understatment for the news i receieved last night, but at this point i can't think of any other way to describe it that is not horrific. it is hard for me to believe that something so bad could happen to someone so close to me. i wish i could make everything be perfect again, where nothing is wrong but the simple truth is that can't happen. i can't change what has happened and the destined path that is made for myself and my family. but i can be greatful for the people in my life that i have to share the great moments with. everyone has to go through bad moments in life and this is just one of those times. i am really hurt by this heartbreaking news as my sister refers to it. but all we can do is move forward with life and take in all the moments we have with our loved ones while we can. i am greatful for the time i was able to spend home with my family over this thanksgiving holiday and i know they are even more greatful for the time we got to spend together. soon i will be going home for christmas again and will get to spend a longer time home with them. i can't really feel happy too much, when i know how hard this news has been for me and everyone in and surrounding my family. it's just unfair. and has made me numb and i really hate it.