PICK MY COSTUME!

I am opening up the polls!

I need help picking out an awesome Halloween costume that won't cost too much and is sort of creative. So with that said if you have some options throw them my way. If it is totally awesome I will be that and start getting what I need for it! Pictures of ideas are more than welcome this way I have an idea of what your idea is!!

Now help me out please!!! :) I definitely need it..

love & pumpkins.

There is indeed a song for everything. And for this post: a song about every relationship.

I thought about giving a detail of the relationship with the song but then I thought that may or may not be rude of me depeding on the situation.

Taylor Swift- Last kiss
Glee- Mine
Taylor Swift- fifteen
Glee- Landslide

At least for now thats really all I can think of. There are entirely too many songs in the world and really these are just ones I have already noticed fit into a few of my relationships. It is real odd that they are all Taylor Swift and Glee but I do like both!




In other news I observed the carving of our pumpkins that sit outside of our house now. They look wonderful! This is just one of them and it's Ashlee's famous puking pumpkin!

 

HA! pretty cool I think. I'll have to add a picture of our whole halloween yard! It came together really awesome.

 

glee, christmas, rain!

I feel the need to post something but really right now I'm not sure where this will lead me. I've been trying to find a good song to inspire something but frankly anything I put on really is just good listening tunes and doesn't really provide me with the will to write. I am really hooked on glee music as of lately. And probably this is because they have taken a bit of a hiatus. So a few weeks with no new glee episodes is a sad time! My favorite by far is "The Scientist" because it has all of my favorite characters in it. I also really like "landslide" and "mine" because the character Santana is my favorite although this season she isn't on the show as much I'm hoping that may change.

I have begun to attempt to figure out some sort of plans for christmas although its like setting up plans for a couple months away which can be tricky! Guess it all works its self out eventually.

It is a real gloomy day, which definitely doesn't match my mood today. I feel as though I had an awesome weekend and am real happy today. So rain, please go away bring some clear skies my way.

I suppose thats really all I have for today just a little bump of writing for now...

the science of selling yourself short

I have come to the conclusion that it is real easy to lose who you are as an individual in this huge world and everything that is happening in it. I have lost who I am many times and it is really odd to have to rediscover who you are.

Hi I'm Naomi. I think I like to have friends, but I can't quite remember because I don't know who I am because I am so confused at how I got to this point in life.

The science of selling yourself short is in fact not a science. How easy is it to sell yourself short? VERY! It is without a doubt very easy to underestimate you abilities and make yourself mentally weaker. To diminish your own self-worth. Well thats not a challenge I havn't had.

The science of building yourself up, yet again not a science. But if you, like me have mastered the first part, than you need to learn about this part. Step one: surround yourself with awesome people just like you! Although you may think you are NOT awesome right now, there is definitely something or more than one thing that makes you super awesome. The second step is just admitting to yourself your totally guilty of the first part; you sold yourself short. I know it will be hard to let your low self-esteem and large amounts of insults you have grown accustomed to go. But trust me it's time.

Here's the reason! Once you get off of your high horse of being less than who you can be and constantly diminishing all your abilities, you infact can form relationships!

It's amazing! The more confidence and love you place on yourself will allow you to place love and trust and all kinds of feelings towards someone else. And once you can do that and form what may be your first healthy relationship. You are heading in the right track.

So jump out of your pool of self- pity and climb into the relaxing jacuzzi of self-love. In here you will find all the pleasantrys of your favorite things in life. It's like putting on your first set or prescription glasses and being able to see the definition in trees. WOW! There really are individual leaves up there it isn't actually one big blob like I have been seeing it my entire life.

I guess you have to find those amazing things out for yourself, expierence all of this things first hand. And I promise once you do, there will be no accompanying regrets.

the fall of love and hate.

The fall brings a lot of different feelings for me. It has a lot of beauty surrounding it as all the leaves change to beautiful colors and the weather gets just a little colder. With the temperature dropping colder and colder my heart aches a little more.

 

For some people the fall may be their favorite time of year for others they may hate the turn from summer to cold fall weather. Some people may hate it for what the significance behind fall brings for them, or love it for a different significance. I for one feel both. I love the significance of the weather changing and becoming cold and am excited to experience yet another winter. And I hate the fall because the fall for me last year was sad. How do you bring yourself to realize it is possibly the last fall you will see in your life?

The fall brings a heavy weight on my heart. My nephew turned two and all I knew for sure is that his father ( my brother in-law) would never physically see him celebrate a birthday again. Although I believe in heaven and that he is indeed watching over his family everyday and held a smile on his face when Domani turned two and got Woody from Toy Story and won't let it out of his sight.

Needless to say I have a lot on my mind as the fall continues and I know the winter will bring more to my aching heart as a year ago I lost someone I love.

As October speeds by me and my mind just slowly catches up to where my heart is November will arrive. And Thanksgiving will come soon enough and the only thing I am truly thankful for is being able to spend my last thanksgiving with my brother Joe. For me this day will be harder than the night of his viewing and the day of his funeral. Because for me it was the last time I was able to see him alive. It was a great day as Joe, Anne (my sister and Joe's wife), and little Domani kept it a complete secret that I was coming home to surprise everyone. And with complete success everyone was surprised and together as a family we spent a great day enjoying turkey and cupcakes from Mendoker's that Domani and Catherine literally had all over themselves, the high-chairs, and the floor.

I'm not sure what this Thanksgiving brings or the weeks after it, but I have been emotionally been preparing myself for a while for those moments. I know for my sister Anne, every 5th day of every month since December has been a really hard day. But for me I've been awaiting that one day where I will always know it was the last time I got to see him around all our family. My trip for Thanksgiving was indeed a short one because I only had a short time I could take off of work but I can't imagine if I had not gotten the chance to go. For those of you who don't know my trip was entirely paid for by one of Anne's friends through work. She organizes unions all over and one of her friends realized how important this was for our family to spend Thanksgiving together. And If I hadn't been so lucky to get home the last time I would have saw Joe would have been in the Summer when we took a vacation together as a family down to LBI.

I am greatful to say the least for the way things play out in my life. I don't think I could ask for much more than do be able to still be alive at the end of every day.

Smoky "evil" Bear

Well, turns out he would much rather drink from our toilet than from his water bowl. He loves to Parkour. He constantly is biting or has his claws out. We have to put special oils on him simply to calm him down for bed. He is a yard cat. He always is in "curious george" mode.

 

Meet Smoky.

 

For those of you who read that and are wondering what Parkour is. Just go watch the link I attached Parkour. It's basically crazy running and jumping off of everything including walls. Which in our house means we have little foot prints everywhere. There are always scratches or bite marks on us and if hes really mean on your face. As for bed time, Smoky gets lavender oil put on all of his paws to calm him down so he actually can sleep through the night. He is easily distracted so it is hard for him to calm down once he is wound up from playing. By yard cat I mean he really loves running around in the yard. Sometimes he flees to the neighbors yard and climbs their big tree out front then whines when he doesn't want to jump to get down but eventually figures out a way out of the tree he climbed. And he is especially curious. If you flush the toilet he runs up to it and climbs on like he is in the picture above and puts his paw in to see where that water is going. He is recently really fascinated with our Halloween decorations and always tries to pull them down. Which in return is making us reallying nervous to put up a tree for Christmas.

 

 

Here we go again

Someone asked me recently what happened to my blog and frankly I didn't have a real answer other than I got lazy and forgot about it. So I suppose now I will quit being lazy and get back to it. My goal for this blog is to be able to start posting pictures with my updates.